Tezer Özlü

Growing up in 1950s Turkey, a young woman feels increasingly alienated by the conventional world surrounding her. In a society shaped by patriarchal expectations, nationalism, and rigid ideas of respectability, she longs for freedom, sensuality, and a life beyond the boundaries imposed on her. Childhood memories of family life and school follow her into adulthood, becoming inseparable from her search for independence. As she moves between Istanbul, Berlin, and Paris, she pursues love and escape, yet finds herself struggling with depression and repeated stays in psychiatric institutions. There, she encounters treatments that threaten to suppress the very individuality she is fighting to preserve. Through fragmented memories, intimate reflections, and an unconventional narrative, she confronts the painful distance between the life society expects her to live and the one she desperately wants. Part autobiographical novel and part intimate psychological portrait, Cold Nights of Childhood is a fearless exploration of female desire, alienation, and resistance. Tezer Özlü transforms personal suffering into a powerful meditation on what it means to remain true to oneself in a world determined to define who one should be.

An unnamed Turkish writer embarks on a restless journey across Europe, following the lives and deaths of three writers who have profoundly shaped her imagination: Cesare Pavese, Franz Kafka, and Italo Svevo. Travelling through Berlin, Prague, Vienna, Zagreb, and other cities, she seeks out the places where they lived, wrote, and died, hoping to understand the connection between literature, suffering, and the desire to live. But this is no ordinary literary pilgrimage. Moving between memories, encounters with lovers, and reflections on her own troubled past, the narrator questions marriage, sexuality, political repression, and the expectations society imposes on women. Her travels become an attempt to escape the confines of her former life and discover a freedom that has always seemed just beyond reach. Blurring the boundaries between autobiography, travel writing, and fiction, Journey to the Edge of Life is an intense meditation on loneliness, mortality, and the search for meaning. Tezer Özlü transforms the European landscape into a map of her inner world, revealing how the lives of writers we admire can become inseparable from our own search for identity and freedom.